PAROXYSMS

So I've recently started a new portrait series exploring the depths of psychological pain and emotional struggles people go through whilst suffering from depression and other mental illness. The portraits that i have been creating are going to be exhibited on 26th June 2012 at UCP centre Peterborough. 

These photographs aren't the final edits however they will give you a little insight to what to expect from this series. The selection of images feature religious iconography and symbolisms which help express the feelings of isolation and pressure I so unfortunately felt at that time in my life.

So here you go a little selection from my my portrait series tittles Paroxysms.

Irene and Dave's April Wedding.

On April 28th myself and my friend Ruth Jones attended and photographed the wedding of Irene and Dave. The day went extremely well for our very first wedding shoot, we did a candid portrait of the wedding with the classic wedding type photographs. I've been dying to show everyone a little of what I achieved on the day so here are some photographs from the day. I will add I wish Irene and Dave a very happy future and many years of joy together.

Irene and Dave's wedding.

Manchester University Interview.

So today I had my very last interview at Manchester Metropolitan University for their Photography course, I really did like the uni and felt dead comfortable there so I've just got to put all hope in that they liked me as much as I liked them. So friendly and felt right at home, plus I like the idea of the city life, felt like I would fit in.

Driving up the country for four hours at 7am.

Finally arrived in the City, it felt like a cross between London and Lincoln, two places which i adore.

Freddy's fast food.

Me and Ma on our way to my interview, we spent an hour walking around campus trying to find my building, just happened to be the one building without a sign. Typical.

Waiting outside like a bag of nervous.

On our way back to the car to dump my portfolio. Felt like I did a good job, but I don't want to jinx myself or anything.

Some quaint pub. Felt like such a tourist. So sad being a small town boy, impressed by the littlest of things.

Fatty.

Shattered after getting lost in Manc, ended up following the tram lines back to Oxford Street. First time I've been able to navigate myself around all me life, well impressed.

Being mothers personal Gps. Travelled all the way across and up. Such a nice part of the country.

Raving it up on the way part.

Short and sweet post with only photos from my phone unfortunately, however if i get accepted i shall be definitely up there and posting much more often! Wish me luck with getting in! 

Awkward Noise: Photographic collective.

Me and some of my peers have organised ourselves into a photographic collective and we are going by the name of Awkward Noise. We are all organising and promoting an up and coming exhibition that we are all taking part in on June 25thh - 29th at University Centre of Peterborough.

We all vary in our photographic genres, each and everyone one of us exploring different a theme for the exhibition in a varied mixed up ways. As a whole we are going to be producing some out standing work to be put on display and hope that as many of you can come along as visit to see the hard work we have been putting in to get the exhibition up and running as well as out photographs. Even if you don't know us personally and just have an interest in photography or studying photography please come along and take a look at our work.

The team members.

Myself: Jac Rudduck

Exploring mental illnesses and psychological disorders within the human mind.

Ruth Jones

Exploring our nations past times and traditions, via landscapes and portraits

Chloë Amber Baronowski

Surrealistic portrait of our dreams and sleeping patterns.

Tara Tilley

Photographing landscapes as a  memoriam of her own life.

Joanne Cream

Creating an unusual portrait series focusing on hobbies and past times.

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UNIVERSITY INTERVIEW

ME, PORTFOLIO AND A SQUINT

So today was my interview at Falmouth University and i had great expectations for the University and the town itself. However I can only say I was merely disappointed with Falmouth in gerenal. At first i was pretty taken back by how beautiful everywhere was and how hilly it is too - barely seen any hills down in the Cambs, well there's like literally none- so although it's beautiful and on the coast i didn't feel that it would keep me entertained for the three years that I'm on the course. The course itself was great as well as the facilities and the staff but if im going to commit to a course I think the obvious thoughts are that you want to feel like you would feel at home constantly, but I don't think it would. It reminded me of the days of when i used to live abroad minutes from the beach, it seems all idyllic at first but once you've spent quite a while there it gets ever so mundane and saying all this i can only see myself soon after arriving after exploring everywhere and thinking what next?

So settling on the idea that i don't think Falmouth is going to be my cup of tea I'm going to focus on my city based universities that I've planned for, if any of you are like me and like an adventure and to explore I'm pretty sure living one of our nations biggest cities would be well suited to that; plus I've never lived in the city so that's right up my street. I like change and new things happening to me so the city I would gather could offering that in terms of excitement and not meaning i have this lack of interest.

Enough about rabbiting on about all that nonsense at least the actual interview went well apart from the grilling which i totally wasn't expected, I turned into a right jittery mess a big bag of nerves. The interviewer lady person thingy head of the course person asked me about historical artists of which I could reference  and why they have influenced me and what differences does my work have to theirs. Well firstly.. I take photos and secondly, I don't know I'm no intellect, calm down with your on the spot trip me up type of questions, all such jargon to me, yadda yadda yadda. Anyway if anyone has any type of response to her question feel free to tell me because I haven't got a clue; I can take an alright photo, maybe draw a pretty alright nude but don't come flying at me with something about history and context, that is one lesson I by far visit land of nod the most in.  

Best thing about today was that Fearne Cotton wished me luck live on Radio One which was pretty neat and turned me into a giddy mess for quite some time. Just the fact she called me a darling live to the nation sent me sky high. I'm going to have to find it and link it for sure, definitely down in my list of achievements (fail).

Journey down south

So today i've travelled down to the south of England down to Somerset to stay with my  Aunty Gail for the night before eventually setting off tomorrow morning to go to Falmouth for my first university interview. I've got my portfolio ready and I'm a sack of nerves but no doubt I'll be fine when it comes to that time; I'm The Masterblagger as all my college friends call me, blag myself out of any sticky situation.

We left early this morning and took Sammie to my Granddads with Bebo, so at least he has someone to play with an exhaust him as I'm not there to fulfil my duties. Pretty sad leaving him but shan't be long til we get back, just another eight hour car journey on Thursday and I'll be home. Hopefully this time it'll go a tad smoother with the journey and lack of crazed southern drivers on the road. Swear down, no joke and no offence to any Southerners but I'm sure you're all on crack; you're all mad on the road, barely made it here alive but in one massive nervous wreck, me and my ma in out tank thought we were going to end up as a tin can or something.

Anyhow's we've arrived at my aunties in Evercreech down in Somerset which is about half way to where my interveiw is at which means the rest of the journey has got to be made tomorrow. Mum got in - chatted to the family whereas I got here and went straight to the garden and played fetch with Holly- funny how I'm more comfortable around the dogs than I am people? Think I'm hinting at myself something - beasty. Oh and yes, of course, that's Crunchie.. I think i may have fallen in love for the first time. Too adorable and I'm totally going to snatch her.

SNATCH

Life portraits - Ric Keyworth

Ric Keyworth - from Peterborough 

This is a portrait of Ric Keyworth that i took earlier on today with fellow photographer, friend and rival Ruth Jones. We met this intriguing gentleman on the streets of Peterborough today whilst in search of the sitters for our portrait session we were completing today. We got to know Ric more in depth and started to really enjoy his company and getting to know all about him, it's been key to creating some beautiful portraits of him.


Lesson leant
He said himself that looking into somebody's eye can be like looking into a completely different person to the person you see before yourself; and that's a great lesson I've began learning about people from practising in my photography. We all judge people by their appearance and with no expection I of course can admit I do generally perceive people to be a certain way based on the way they look before getting to know the real person like most of our generation do. Ric was one of the most kind hearted men I've photographed and spoken to, he seemed genuinely interested and invested in the portraits we were creating.

There are many more to come from this series so I shall have to keep you all up to date with how things are going. I am going to possibly try to get some more work published at some point in the near future which will be rather exciting; you all best buy whatever if I ever do though! frame it and hang it in your lavatory: I'd be chuffed to bits with that.

A YEAR OF HAIR DYE HAIRY FACES AND BOYS

DECEMBER2010 -PRE BREAKDOWN

JANUARY2011 TURNED PSHYCHO CHOPPED AND GINGERED MY HAIR

JANUARY2011 GAINED HIDEOUS SHIRT OBSESSION

FEBUARY2011 WENT ICE BLONDE

FEBUARY2011 DUNNO WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON AT THIS POINT

MARCH2011 PROUD AND PINK. DODGEY LOOKS GALORE IN GOOD OLD MARCH

MARCH2011 GAINED A MAX

MAY2011 GAINED A TAN AND A NOSE RING

MAY2011 MADE MYSELF LOOK SICK WITH THIS GREEN SHIT

JUNE2011 AND I GOT HAIRY, YAWNED A LOT AND BACK TO BLACK

JUNE2011 DISGUSTED BY HOW AWFUL MY QUIFF WAS JUST NOT IN THIS PIC

JUNE2011 GAINED OBSESSION WITH CHEAP SHIT AND LOST IN DIGNITY INVOLVING MY APPEARANCE

JULY2011 NOTHING WAS NEW 

JULY2011 I STILL HAD A MAX AND WE WAS SO TOTES SO GLAM

AUGUST2011 SHORT BANGS. WOOSHY WOOSHY

AUGUST2011 SHORT BANGS. NO BROWS WOOSHY WOOSHY.

SEPTEMBER2011 LOST MY MAX. STOLE A JUMPER BUT FOUND MY BROWS AND WENT BACK BLONDE. OH NO SUCH A STUPID MONTH.

SEPTEMBER2011 TRIED A DUO DYE OF PINK AND BLONDE. KEEPING IT REAL.

SEPTEMBER2011 PUT PORN ALL OVER MY ROOM SOME MORE.

OCTOBER2011 FREAKY FRIDAY FOR HALLOWEEN.

NOVEMBER2011 GREW A MO FOR MOVEMBER. A SHIT ONE AT THAT.

DECEMBER2011 CRIED MY EYES OUT AT MARLEY AND ME BUT NO CHANGE CUZ IM BORING.

JANUAR2012 NOTHING NEW BUT A CRUDE AWFUL EYE INFECTION MAKING ME LOOK STUPIDLY HIGH NONSTOP.

FEB2012 SHAVED ME HEAD. DEBATED ABOUT REMOVING MY MOLE

FEBRUARY2012 SOME BITCH BITCH SLAPPED ME OVER FRANKIE EFFING COCOZZA. OH NO HE DIDNT.

MARCH2012 TIME FOR REHAB.